It happened quite quickly. I'm in a bit of a shell-shock over the loss. I was aware we were having problems, but I thought we were working them out. I was trying to change...I THOUGHT they were working on their issues as well. I swear I was trying to foster the relationship. I was providing lots of water, increased calorie intake and twice daily fenugreek. Alas, one day they were here...the next...GONE...and they packed up and took their milk supply with them.
Our anniversary was coming up. We were to celebrate one year together in just 7 short weeks. I thought we were going to be a success story. I was wrong.
I'm trying to pick up the pieces. I'm trying to collect myself and make a plan. They've left behind some of their things, 2 lowly bags of frozen stock, that will last me about a week or two. It's time. I have to accept it. I have to welcome someone else into the picture. I just don't know if I'm ready (read HERE about my irrational fear).
As an act of defiance, I still lugged my pump to work with me today. I'm praying for a miracle. Stay tuned...........
I'm sorry :(
ReplyDeleteI'm sure you being sick didn't help the situation. I'll keep my fingers crossed that you get your miracle, but even if you don't you should be very proud of how far you've made it. You've done great!
You did a great job! FX crossed for a miracle but at least weaning won't hurt as much as it could!
ReplyDeletePS it was great to see you! We need to get coffee sometime!
Same thing is going on with me. Sorry to hear it, it is sad and frustrating at the same time. At one point I was pumping 28 ounces a day, now I'm down to 12ish (pumping four times in the 20 hrs we are apart). It's only enough for half of what he is drinking and when the 1 freezer bag we have left is gone, we'll be supplementing with formula. I know once we are supplementing my supply will completely tank and that will be the end of it. My babe is 9 1/2 months. I'll be happy (ish) if we can make it to 10 months before formula.
ReplyDeleteGood luck mama, I soooo know the feeling.