Some days home alone with the kids are amazing, perfect and smooth. I feel like super mom. We have a wonderful day, and when hubs gets home, we're all hunky-dory.
Other days are an epic fail. Today I felt like a horrible mom. It was like every last imperfection reared its ugly head. On days like this, I start to highlight my mistakes as a mom, I internalize them and they eat away at me. It's days like this that I have a mini nervous breakdown, as my daily failures pile up.
With T I'm about ready to pull my hair out with his inability to hold his pee at night. He turned 5 in June, and my 5 year old still wears a pull-up. ::hangs head in shame:: I have tried it all. I have let him sleep in underwear, threatened privileges, offered rewards for repeatedly dry days, you name it. I am about two seconds away from shelling out some major dough for the little wet sensor that the Leaps and Bounds catalogue sells to help wake a sleeping child when they need to pee. I'm at my wits end. I was yesterday. I HATE YOU PULL UPS!
I feel like a failure when I can't make progress on these issues with my 5 year old. I'm losing my mind, and sadly my iron-clad patience I am so proud of.
B is also driving me bonkers today, as much as a 14 month old can, of course. She is IMPOSSIBLE to shop with...a frigging nightmare! If I don't have an IV drip of snacks for her for the duration of our trip to the grocery store...watch out! Today I was one of those moms that opens the package WHILE she is still shopping. Yep, that was me. Ugh. B throws everything on the floor after allowing it to entertain her for 2.2 seconds; binky, my phone (twice), the grocery list (three times), 2 books I picked up to appease her, a snack, another snack, yet another snack, just about every non-breakable grocery in my cart...you get the idea. Then she tries to sit up in the cart, throws her head back and screams when I won't let her, oh...and she poops...EVERY FRICKING TIME!
My little hulk!
I also feel so guilty if they don't get a variety. My pantry is a who's who of every healthy snack alternative for kids over the age of 1 year. It's insanity in a cabinet.
Speaking of veggies...what fricking veggies?! T eats at total of 3, and 2 of those are cold and with about a bucket of ranch (carrots and broccoli). B eats a total of zero...yep...zilch. My 14 month old gets NO fresh veggies in her diet. I am a freaking failure. Every once in a while, I can get her to eat hummus, and the other day I hid small carrot pieces in her eggs (but it took her about 4 bites to find them and throw every last one on the floor). Otherwise...this is how she eats her veggies.
Can you tell I've had a rough day?! Sorry for the massive mommy fail vent, but sometimes a mommy has got to get it all out. Oh, did I mention I screamed out in frustration in the car on the way home from the grocery store. My eyes welled up with tears, I had to tell myself to breath and I shook. I really gotta stop letting things fester. Clearly, this isn't working for me.
So am I an epic mommy failure?! Anyone else share any of these, or similar, struggles with their kids? Please share, so I don't feel like a complete crazy lunatic. ::breath::
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